Man, it's hard to believe that it's day 108. I meant to write something witty and reflective on day 100, but that didn't happen. I know that I am overdue for an update and I don't want any of you who follow this blog to worry, so here's what I've got. I saw Doc Brown, the shrink, last Wednesday. He raised my Zoloft again to 150 mg. This is the median dosage for people who take the stuff according to Coach. When he asked me if I had experienced any lessening of the desire to ritualize, I said, "No." He commented that he wasn't surprised because we still needed to get my dosage up to therapeutic levels. The annoying thing is that no one makes 150 mg pills, so I have to cut them in half every other night.
As expected side effects have increased and I'm down another few pounds (12 in all since starting the meds). I still haven't experienced any lessening in the desire to ritualize and I'm still taking Ambien every night to sleep. I see Coach in the morning so I'm sure we'll discuss it. I see Doc Brown again in two weeks when we will begin a generic form of Ritalin. It carries it's own collection of side effects so the combination could get interesting.
Anyway, thanks for reading, world. Let's keep in touch.
Glad to hear from you! My 200 mg of Zoloft didn't so much lessen my desire to ritualize as give me just enough breathing room to do exposures. Is Coach talking about exposure therapy at all? It was a lifesaver for me!
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